At church on Sunday, one of the points in the homily was an exercise Fr. Joseph had completed in college. It was what each individual wanted to have written on their tombstone. He said that one classmate wanted “Found a cure for cancer”; another wanted “Visited all the countries in the world”; and a third wanted “At Last. At Last. I’m Home At Last”. The ensuing homily centered around the notion of “home”.
I got to thinking about my home. I have had several in my life. Homes that I lived in with my parents, homes I shared with my husband, places that felt like home, even though I didn’t live there. When you are away from home, it is a struggle to to feel centered – to have a place that you can go to and be accepted, a place that is a refuge.
Lately I have been thinking that (re)finding my faith is like finding a home. The Church has always been a constant in my life – even when I was away from it. It was always in the back of my mind and heart. Even though I came back a few years ago, I wasn’t really back. I had issues that I needed to address. But through the combination of various people I have met, the priests in my parish, and the reflection I have been doing, I think I have begun to find my way home….home to the faith community that means so much to me; that has meant so much to my family; that has allowed me to experience the beauty of the Mass again.
I had a priest tell me yesterday that “God is easy, it’s the people that make things difficult”. I think that helped solidify my notion of home. I know that I have a home in my faith, in my belief of God. I also know that I have a home on earth with those who love me and with those who support me. My home isn’t necessarily limited by the four walls holding up my house, but it is built by the hearts and hands that are there to hold me up when I am struggling. To those people, I say thank you.